Dear Friends in Jesus Christ,
Its so good to talk to you again. God is Good, He is marvelous, sometimes I wish I could tell you this that I am but one of the Greatest Sinners, Yet He uses me, Yet He is the Greatest Redeemer, not just for me, but for you, but for all those who take refuge in Him.
Probably you haven’t seen me, but I tell you this that I’m not that strong physically but my strength comes my Lord, I know that because of my weakness, and my littleness, I have been trampled a million times more by Satan, but you know what Jesus did, He said Never Give up, Rise, Hold me, Steady now, You can do it.
Many I times in confessional I feel ashamed that how can I hurt my Lord so much by my sins, but Jesus re-assures me with His mother speaking that Do not look back, You are a new creation.
I have made you new, Sin no more. 2 Corinthians 5:17
I’ll tell you today about my struggle so that you may know that whatever I do, I do not do it of my own but everything that is good comes from the Lord Himself, and I will give my praise forever, my best is always His.
I’ve seen Mother Mary taking me to Jesus, when I was too ashamed to go, and I’ve seen Jesus’s mercy, and all I can tell you is there is nothing that He cant fix.
Let me tell you this with bold claim that if you are sitting, He is beside you, if you are sleeping, He is beside you, if you are walking, He is beside you, if you are afraid, He is beside you even more, if you are suffering, He is in you and you in Him.
So know this very well that the Heart of Jesus long to save us, more than the worlds sins can drown us to hell.
God is there, do not afraid of Him, the greater the trust the great will be His mercy.
I had some particular issues with women in past, that led me to hate them, before and even after I’ve met with Christ.
Its a scar that led me to depression, near suicide, near family breaking, innumerable fights and what not that led me to addictions I never would accept by myself. Pornography, BDSM, I know you are thinking this cannot be the man who used to give us good messages of Christ, but yes I can assure you that it was He who gave you the messages, it was He who uses me, as He pleases, For I am but a pencil in His hands.
There are times when Satan would go duel on me, He would just decide to put me into a series of attacks especially in my scar, to make me mad.
But I will still give thanks to my Lord my Savior, because before I preached the Gospel to you, He has saved me, and He is still saving me and He is still going to save me.
Today I was taking afternoon nap, and I was bogged down, could not sleep, Satan was just keeping me in a half awake, half sleep process, and tormenting me.
But I can tell you, Jesus was there, He is my fortress that is why he never let him shook me.
I am just a person like you, weak very little, my faith is not very strong, nor is my spiritual life, but what keeps me going is Mother Mary, for when I fail she leads me to Jesus, not by my own merits, but by her’s.
Jesus after His life, gave me a new mother, and that mother has been very active in healing my scar for sometimes now.
It gives me great joy to speak with God and with Mom.
I know its kind of of crazy, well let people take me for crazy I’m fine with it.
If you ask me how many friends I have I will say Jesus, Jesus and Jesus.
Sometimes I am fanatic, radical, soft, whatever He wants me to become I try my best to become that.
For I believe that “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” – John 3.16
And in the midst of the battle of today He gave me special message which I want to share with all of you.
“You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. 1 John 4:4”
So I tell you friends, don’t loose hope,
This is God’s promise to you that
The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still – Exodus 14:14
And our Lord is faithful, when he promises something He fulfills it, I can assure you of that my friends, I have tasted God in those moments when I was lost by the sins, by the world, when I was trampled by Satan and the world, when I had no strength or will left in me to fight them, when I was fighting myself that why should I fight, why should I be free lets accept Satan’s dominion.
But let me tell you that “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” – 2 Timothy 1:17
Help is always available, its never too late, He is merciful, He is love, His is limitless love, He is our Lord, our Creator, our God. He is our everything, beginning and the end.
He is awesome!
I’ve found God, Our Lady and our One Holy Catholic Apostolic Church by my side always and for that I’m infinitely grateful to my God, for this is the package that held me together till now.
So don’t give up, God is there with you too, so is Our Lady, So is our Church.
See when we have problem as we are the body of Christ, Christ have a problem too! So from this perspective as well, even if you think that he does not love you or you are beyond repair(which is absolutely false because its never too late, and He loves you to the point of death on the cross.) He will come and fix that problem.
“To set you and me free
To Set us on fire
The Fire that will sweep across the world, and turn it into blazing furnace.
Imagine a world on Fire, the Fire of Love, the Fire that will allow us to Praise God for all things, that Fire that will help us to experience Heaven on Earth.”
Oh How wonderful it would be, I’m overjoyed in tears.
How marvelous is God’s plan for us, it makes me wonder into the mystery that is so beautiful that I can’t explain.
Oh Hallelujah !
Come Let us Praise Him Hallelujah
I don’t know about you, but now at this very moment I surrender all to Jesus. Everything, My Struggles, My Good, My Bad, My Love, My Failing Faith, My Weak Trust.
Lord take me Lord, Use me Lord, oh Hallelujah, May my Will be only to do your’s. So Greatly Merciful God, Hallelujah, You are truly the face of the invisible Father.
You are God, Yes you are the Son of God.
You are my Savior, you are truly the savior of the world.
With that I conclude my letter to you,
With lots of love
Sampad Xavier Chaudhuri